boiled down

aura: sleepy
audio: mojofly - mata

after cutting my hair... (archived entry)


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hi-low

aura: hi-low
audio: saliva - rest in peices

i just couldn't get enough words to describe how i feel today.. i felt so vulnerable, exposed, unprotected, unsafe, weak, sensitive, assailable, defenseless, naked, unhappy, moody, glum, blue......

i just found today very very peculiar... where everything around you are in slow motion.. the way i think.. the way i do things.. the way i go from one place to another just to do something... its like i took drugs or what.. my mind was just so preoccupied by a lot of things going on in my life that i often responded to my surroundings erroneously..

just to give you an idea.. this afternoon while in the office, i was going to get a drink in our water dispenser.. so i took off my seat, took my cup and went to the wash room instead of going into the water dispenser.. well at least i could find water in wash rooms.. pft....

i just wish i could find answers to every weird thing that's happening to me right now....



anyways.. off topic.. just want to share this song.. it's... nice....

try checkin it out..

saliva - rest in pieces

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Pieces

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I am in your reach
You held me in your hands

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)


Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
(find it in your heart)
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
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what policiy?

aura: have no idea
audio: mayonnaise - pink white blue

i just want to inform and warn you guys that the next time you see me especially to those who haven't see me since august 9, 2005 afternoon (tuesday). that you'd be surprised.. believe me.. even i, myself still get shocked some times when i look myself in the mirror..

i was forced to cut my hair last tuesday.. i was this close on reaching the length of hair i planned to have since last year.. the company i'm working at right now just informed me through my department's head and through my manager to cut my hair!!! i have no idea and didn't quiet get the logic of their request.. i mean i took my exam, had my interview and contract signing and had been working there with my hair almost that long and didn't get any warning.. then after a year of working.. just this month they told me through the dept head and my manager via email that i was violating whatever policy they have, which by the way was quite vague and i would say nobody ever had any idea that that policy exists.. i even talked to someone, whose been in that company for a couple of years, one of oldest member in our dept, and asked me why did i cut my hair? "BAWAL BA ANG LONG HAIR?!" (is having a long hair not allowed?) aaaaaargggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

!@$&**#@%!!!!!

i got really mad when my colleagues informed me that hr dept sent an email with the subject "kenneth chan" and telling the dept head and my manager all sorts of things about me violating policies or rules or whatever were written in the company's handbook that we didn't knew exists... i just thanked God i didn't had a chance to read that letter.. (my colleagues happened to read it by accident.. hehe!) after that i just can't calm myself.. i actually did had the idea of leaving this job asap.. i mean even the hr have seen me a couple of times.. and never i did get any words from them.. well not after a year.. and not directly to me.. through my manager!

anyway.. i've just decided to cut my hair short to show respect to the dept head and my manager.. to be honest, i still get mad everytime i think of what happened.. i just felt like i was in high school again.. to all my college friends, friends i met after high school.. don't get surprised coz i know i never had my hair done like this after i left high school.. haha!

well what can i say? @*$#%@@#@!%$@$*%@$@#@$!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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long hair? or long hair?

aura: glad
audio natali imbruglia - counting down the days

just had my hair cut last week.. see the difference? mwahahahaha!



before and after...
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smallville

aura: no idea
audio: evanescence - imaginary

just had my time to start watching the latest season of smallville (season 4) last week. and i would say that the plot's twists and everything were pretty interesting.. (and i love lois lane's character..) just found out that the supervising producer involved one of the famous comic writer, jeph loeb.. thanks to him..

i've still got 10 episodes to watch for season 4 though.. can't wait for season 5 to premier this coming 29th of september! haha! check out KryptonSite-> a good source for smallville fans.. =)
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