missing merry

aura: somewhat excited
music: kitchie nadal - wag na wag mong sasabihin

just a few moments left and it's Christmas.. again.. i'm not really sure how i feel right now.. my parents are already sleeping.. it's only me, my brother and, my sister whose awake and who are looking forward to stay and be awake when time reaches 12 o'clock..

i just can't help but notice every year, the spirit of Chirstimas in our little home just diminishes.. it's not that i'm lonely, or anything. maybe i just missed those days where all of us would eat and drink a few before 12.. exchange gifts after 12, me, my brother and sister would kiss our parents as we greet each other Merry Christmas..

those days seemed gone.. does getting older has anything to do with all of this changes? it seems that the older we grow the more this day becomes meaningless or less... merry..

but i do keep in mind that Christmas is not about giving gifts or receiving them.. this day was meant to celebrate and remember the birth of our savior Jesus Christ.. and hey, that should be enough reason to be happy and merry on Chirstmas day after all...

Merry Christmas everyone!!! (^_^) Ü ü ö

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aura: tired
audio: the calling - anything

finally! after two or three long, busy and tiresome weeks, i get a chance to hibernate!!!!

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aura: sorry
audio: the calling - stigmatized

i just feel like posting my drawings.. hehe.. don't expect anything, i'm not as good as those who are "REALLY INTO" drawings.. i'm not like one of those comic book artists whom i greatly admire for bringing fiction characters and, super heroes alive by their very expressive and impressive arts. so more power to you guys especially to all Filipino artists who draw for huge comic book companies like Marvel and DC!!! keep up the great work guys!

i like to draw. i consider it as one of my hobbies. but i only draw when i'm in the mood.. how i wish i could draw when i feel depressed.. haha! basta i only draw whenever i feel really really good..

i always base my drawings from something. Pictures, drawings or anything that i like and could base my drawings from. not from my own imagination coz i'm not a creative person. another thing is that i don't put colors in them.. and also, i appreciate my work more if its plain black and white.. as i've mentioned, i'm not creative enough to do my own stuff and i admit i really suck when it comes to color combinations... hehe! ö

so here are some of my recent works.. :p all comments and violent ractions are greatly appreciated!

pictures posted thru Hello Posted by Hello

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idol speech

aura: depressed
music: tracy chapman - fast car

jon bon jovi is no doubt one of the person i really admire in this world.. not that i was able to know him or even meet him personally. i believe i knew him from the songs that he wrote in his/their albums, the way he performs and the way he sings his songs.

i have read the speeches he delivered in universities and God i envy those students who were able to hear those words directly from him.. i really suggest you guys to read the whole speech.. i really planned to post the whole speech here but instead i've just quoted some the the words that really strike me..

"There is no course on how to be a rock ‘n’ roll star, but it was the only future I ever envisioned for myself. Looking back on it now, there was no logical reason to believe… but I believed anyway. In my mind, I was going to be a musician. I knew it. I felt it. I believed it with every fiber of my being. It was probably a healthy combination of blind faith, naiveté and passion that carried me towards my dream… and that, if you take ANYTHING from my words here today, is what you should remember: PASSION + PERSERVERENCE = POSSIBILITY. "

"PASSION....Whatever you plan to pursue in life, whatever you do … be passionate about it. Not everyone is born into this world with the same advantages. It can seem pre-ordained and unfair when others seem to have an easier time out there in the world that you. But just because someone is wearing a fancy pair of trainers doesn’t mean they can run faster. Don’t be intimidated by the competition. Sometimes, the advantage is having to work twice as hard to accomplish your goal — the success is sweeter and the failure less bitter when you know you gave everything you had. Remember it’s PASSION, NOT PEDIGREE that can, and will, win in the end. It’s not your father’s world anymore. It doesn’t matter what the world expects from you… it’s what do you expect of yourself? Others will put their expectations, both good and bad, upon you. Ignore them. Be true to yourself. It’s your life. "

"........YOU ARE THE MASTER OF YOUR OWN DESTINY. If ever there was proof that PASSION, NOT PEDIGREE will win, ....."

"PERSERVERENCE ..............No one in Hollywood encourages musicians to make the transition into acting (let’s face it, the track record of rock stars trying to act isn’t very good.) I had to audition JUST to get an acting coach. Even after years of acting lessons, I wasn’t being offered roles — I was going on auditions. Nothing comes easy. It took persistence and patience and years of waiting until I finally won my first movie role......... I found myself on a movie set beside Whoopi Goldberg, Gwyneth Paltrow and Kathleen Turner. It was terrifying........BON JOVI still have to fight. I still have to fight. So I guess what I’m trying to say is don’t get too comfortable with who you are at any given time — you may miss the opportunity to become who you want to be."

"POSSIBILITY.......But even with your degree, even with my accomplishments, you can never take your success for granted. Not fame, but the satisfaction that is success. Never take your audience for granted. Never forget where you come from. Be humble. Stay humble."

"People say “money is the root of all evil” but that’s NOT the correct quote. The actual saying is “The LOVE of money is the root of all evil” — money can’t buy happiness, it can’t buy you class, it can’t buy you respect and as the Beatles said, money can’t buy you love."

"I’d like to leave you with these finals words: grow up, but don’t grow old and live while you’re alive. When I was younger, I had no idea what tomorrow would bring. Next year, I will turn 40 and I still have no idea what tomorrow will bring. And THAT’S what makes it so exciting. So as you map out your future, do it in pencil. The road ahead is long as you make it. Make it worth the trip."

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welcome to my life...


    ...have a cool, smooth one

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