quicksand

aura: anxious
audio: jimmy eat world - hear you me

quicksand.. i've heard bout it in a movie once.. one character feared of it.. coz everytime he's in a hard situation, he becomes more anxious, and the more he struggles, the more he fails..

i guess he's right.. a lot of us fear of it.. i've encountered it a couple lot of times in my life.. the more i struggle, the faster and the more it consumes me.. maybe it's better to just let things be when you're in one hell of a situation.. you can't control everything.. things change... most of the time, the more i struggle, the more things get worse and more complicated..

when your'e in it, the more you stay still, the more time it will need to consume you compared to when you're struggling... it could give you more time when you stayed still.. and just let things be the way they really are.. the way things should be..

sometimes, maybe it's best to just let things go..
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jimmy eat world

aura: excited
audio: jimmy eat world - kill

great band!!! great songs!!! they rock!!!

Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will

Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means (means)
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away

So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
(Know what you want to say)
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant

I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
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despedida

aura: sleepy
audio: up dharma down - pag-agos

"aalis na ako kenneth.. part of who i am is because of you..."

ako din..... mae ann, nanghihinayang ako di tayo masyadong nag-uusap or nagkasama after high school..

"being friends, hindi naman kung gano kadalas magsama eh.. you know me better than anyone whose here right now...."

you're right.. still sayang..

good luck to you my friend.. i know you'll do great out there.. good bye for now..

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